Yes and it sucks and no one understands or believes.

@A MyChronicPainTeam Member Hi there and please know that depression does not need to be the end of the road or the end of your life. I have been and am still depressed. I did try suicide 30 some odd years ago and ended up getting a good night's sleep. My thinking was such that I would tell myself that I was such a loser I could not seal that deal. Something I am beyond grateful for. Had I succeeded I would not have my grandkids or had my youngest be my best friend. I would never have seen the Great Wall of China, twice. So many things that have been wonderful would never have happened. I got therapy and antidepressants and with work many issues left. Many remain and that is life but I can choose how I want to feel. Somedays are my wallow in self pity days. Others are my screw this, I got stuff to do days. If you are depressed get help even if it is a self help book and your Primary Care doc giving you antidepressants.

I want to say, because of how upset you are, that the primary cause of death for Anthony Bourdain was not depression but an addiction to cocaine and heroin. You just had to look at his face to see what I thought of as the ravishes of alcoholism. The way he drank, mixed with two potent drugs took him to his death. What ever depressed him was fertilized by drugs which are in themselves depressants. I liked him. I watched his show. I am beyond destressed that someone with his money did NOT GET HELP. If nothing else comes out of his death the jump in calls to suicide crisis lines has been increased by 25% nation wide. If one person gets clean from this then the universe is somewhat balanced. If you believe in prayer then pray for his soul. If you are Wiccan or Pagan light a white candle in memory. Do what makes you feel better.

Last but not least is your unwanted caller. Tell them not to call and why. The other way is to block them on your phone and elsewhere. Easy peasy. The first is hard the second is easy. You decide. I am not unfeeling. I sound like it. I am a survivor which is what I want for you. Hugs and Bright Blessings. Barb

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I like watching movies too

When I’m having a particularly bad day, I try to watch something funny on Netflix. Like some old favourite shows that are guaranteed to make me laugh. That’s what my therapist recommended. She said laughter is one of the best things to pull us out of a depression. I also follow some really funny feeds on Instagram and sometimes I will just go through the whole feed for a good laugh!

So sorry to hear that. I see my doctor tomorrow and hoping she’ll fill mine too. I ran out early because of the pain