Living with chronic pain for decades can wear people down emotionally, and thoughts like this are more common than many admit. It does not mean someone truly wants to die; often it means they want the pain to stop and to be understood. Support from others who get it, mental health care, and being heard can make a real difference. If these thoughts ever feel overwhelming, reaching out to a trusted person or a crisis helpline right away is important; you do not have to carry this alone.

I have been hurting so long and definitely considered suicide more than once. But since my son killed himself in 2023 , I won't do it because I wouldn't want anyone to hurt because of something I did. So I just cry and consider becoming a drunk. Then I laugh and realize, I don't drink. Lol. I'll make it somehow by the grace of God. I always do. Pain sucks...

I have been at the point of complete hopelessness, done with the excruciating pain, tired of feeling it, many times. If it wasn't for having the Lord in my life, the hope and promise he has given me, I would have not made it through these last 25 years.

I think about it almost everyday. I'm just afraid my kitties would eat me and how gross would that be?

You are Remarkable. Making me smile/giggle. Ill take it. Thanks Denise. "Absofuckingloutley", haven't heard that in a while...