I feel that way all the time especially in the summer and winter. I refer to my bedroom as my cell always wondering what I did to get " jailed " in this vicious cycle of severe pain , anxiety , and depression. Distraction works for a while , but when that no longer works the bad thoughts and loneliness creeps in. I was abused as a child so I try to think of the good times I had because there were some. And there were a few bad times I can look back at and laugh at. I don't have a good support system at home so it's up to me to figure away to chase away the bad thoughts. My nurse comes tomorrow. I love her so much and I'm always sad when the hour is up. Here is a quote from Joe Mantegna"s character David Rossi from Criminal Minds. " Life is a hell of a thing to happen to a person. " Prayers to you all.

Listen...I've been at 'rock bottom' many times over the years.
I've had to cope with terrible chronic pain since I jumped and survived falling 90 feet, that's nine stories off a balcony, a failed suicide attempt when I was 20 years old.

Been 'that rocked bottom'd'...I just wanted to die, and that was before the chronic pain...that was caused by my manic depression, which they now refer to as bi-polar disorder.

Thing that I've learned...I'm now 51 and have spent more than half my life now paying for that fateful decision to try and take my own life...ever since I've had to suffer, and suffer and suffer...day after day...terrible pain!

Been down soooo low, days not getting out of bed.

BUT
BUT!
Listen...I've learned, to hold on...just hold on...take it day by day, moment by moment...because let me tell you, no matter how awful and terrible living with chronic pain is...it's life, you still have 'life'
And...
Just look outside, or sit in the sun shine, if you can...
Or...Listen to the birds outside, or ....rain....
Just take a walk, if you can...
Or just marvel out the window at the world...this great big beautiful world, that YOU are still a part of.
And...
Think about the people that care about you...YOU! YOU are ALIVE!

For every 'bottom'...there is a TOP
For every rainy day...there is a sunny one
For every horrible painful day...there is the days it's more tollerable
Hang in there...

~grateful to be alive~

Focus on something other than your pain if you can .try to think on the good things life has given you we all have something we enjoyed e.g. our childhood ,school days,holidays etc I know it's not easy but I do find it helps a little

I read through your comments and I totally agree with how you both worded them. I feel like nobody is truly interested in helping me with my pain. Or worse than that you get labeled a "medicine seeker" ???? How the heck (being nice) am I a medicine seeker, I have been with the same doctors for around 16 to 17 years??
Your comment about being in a so called "Jail cell" (please read all before getting upset) made my day! I laughed so much to myself of course. I want to go back to jail. I was a Corrections officer for over 32 years. Before I was forced out by health reasons.

But with that said I do unfortunately understand about your pain. Just can't even get it out of my bedroom. 😡

I am not sure what the good Lord is planning for me. But I wish he would come down here and tell me, i am so tired of waiting.

Just not happy and not in control anymore......
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@A MyChronicPainTeam Member Hi yes your worth a lot do not put your self down .You are not just taking up space you have joined our team and will be able to help others and your self .You will always be of worth to someone take care and if I can help you in any way don't hesitate to contact be it for a rant ,vent or chat.HUGS you have worth

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